I don’t want to change because I’m fine with who I am to stay who I am until I have completed who I want to be I know what I need to change for me to be okay with me and if I don’t I’ll find it sometime. I don’t need to change myself bc I hate myself bc everyone else hates who I am. If the world doesn’t like that I’m different then fuck them. Learn to love the beauties of who and what I am. Don’t choose to see one side of me and then when I try and let you see the other part of me choose to ignore their could be more to it. Fuck you. You shouldn’t have someone that doesn’t get it. And won’t try. I don’t deserve someone that’s acts like they’ve already given up on me while I’m trying to not give up on myself. When I would rather give up myself bc its easier than doing it all by yourself with no support. Nothing. If that’s not the truth that’s at least how I feel. Do fucking something about it. The results you receive the words out of your mouth that’s all you. I am not to blame. Sorry but I won’t sit here and be blamed for being stuck because I’ve expressed what’s needed now and ain’t shit has changed. I’m not changing bc others hate who I am. That’s fucked up. I’ll change what I want to change and I’ll keep crying over why everyone has such a problem with who and what I am.
Eat somewhat healthy.
Take care of body.
Take care of beauty.
Lose at least 30 lbs.
You’ve ruined my life. My dreams. I wanted two kids. To grow up together. To pretend together. To do things together and not have an age difference together that affects that. I don’t have that. I hate you for that. I’m sorry I do. But that’s the only thing I wanted in life. And that makes you the wrong guy for me. Bc you aren’t capable. And you don want to be. You stopped me from having this.
A date is not when the girl drives. The girl pays. And the guy won’t do anything for u. I don’t think I have ever been on a date.